hard to believe it’s just under two weeks to go now. mixed feelings. it’s going to be nutty times, sleeplessness, an unpredictable baby, i’ll be recovering from surgery, the little bossman will be adjusting… it’s going to be chaotic.
however. this body and belly. i feel proud of my two morning walks. tiresome and difficult as they were. it’s a nice way to start the day, and it’s good to get the blood flowing. i’m 154 lbs. that’s about how much i weighed when the little guy was born. i really can’t wait to work off the baby weight. to have these morning walks, except with the baby in a sling. things are hard, but i’m not feeling the self-pity anymore. i don’t mind asking for help and i also don’t mind pushing myself a little as long as it’s safe. i try to do dishes and laundry, tidy up as much as possible, with breaks. i’m not doing yoga or stretches which i would like to incorporate.
i don’t know how healthy my diet has been. i’m a little lazy about cooking now. i snack quite a bit. i eat ice cream, cake, i don’t skimp on sweets. but i’m also too lazy to peel an orange. i have blueberries in the morning. maybe tomorrow i will go to the store to get ice cream and juice.
the surgery aspect of things is starting to feel a little daunting. i’ve been through it before. just need to stay positive, and look towards meeting my little girl.